Fat Free Cheese

I now understand why contestants on "The Biggest Loser" often throw up while working out. Being that I work in TV myself, I always just assumed it was something put on for the cameras to increase the drama (which I'm sure is still true in some cases), but holy cow. I was pumped to have finally figured out the whole podcast thing, and as it started, I was off! With Carli telling me to be sure to journal because Oprah says it's good for the soul, I was on my way to starting Week 2, Day 1. Well ladies, this blog is good for my soul, but after my first two sets of running, I did briefly think that I might hurl. My problem was just being HOT. It was such a nice night, if I had a sweet headlamp like Alice, I would've loved to have done the run outside! I was sweating like I was in an audition for Flashdance, and of course, I'd forgotten my own towel, so I was sopping it up with crappy paper towels.

I never could relate to runners in the past, they always seemed kind of smug, like they were better than everyone else. I think that they just know that it's basically impossible to explain what your mind experiences while running. The phrase "dig deep" comes to mind, because during some of the later runs, I was considering slowing the treadmill down to walking pace, and giving up, but I didn't! I was in my zone, drowning out crazy Latin Zumba with the podcast when I had to think of reasons not to stop, and there were PLENTY. One was knowing I'd be sitting on my couch, writing this later on, and how I did NOT want to document how I'd given up without trying my hardest. I will not judge you ladies, and I hope you don't judge me, if sometime in the future I just physically can't immediately rise to the challenge, but I know that we're all trying our hardest, and that pushed me a lot further. Also, thinking of my Mom, and how she's so proud and inspired by my progress, and how hers inspires me, really kept me going. There are several more shallow reasons, like just wanting to look better, etc, but it was the support of friends and family that really kept me going! I also sort of came out of the "non-smoking" closet today on Facebook, and so many people voiced their support for my eight days smoke free! I know I say it in like every post, but I'm so grateful and psyched to have you girls going through this journey with me. Who needs Bob and Jillian anyway???